Chapter 1: The Beginner

Have you ever asked yourself? Who are you? Why God sent you to this world? Actually, deep inside you know why God sent you to this world, what we really want to do in life. We may recognise it in the term of passion. Sooner or later, we eventually will find out what we’re really good about, what makes us happy and how to make ourselves useful for others. But the big trap is that whether we do it for the sake of God’s willing or not. People have their own “calling” in life, never generalise, what matters to you are not always the matters for others. They might find happiness in everyone’s “wow” at your achievement of buying a new car from their savings, others, in the other hand, in the smile of their loved ones whose hair were blown by the air inside an old “kijang kapsul” on their way back home from their social activities. Whatever it is, nothing’s wrong with it. Judge never! We feel and do our part in this world, in each and every unique way, to harmonise and to synchronise this planet.

And me. I have tons of ideas in my mind, I have lots of things I want to do, but still, I do not have courage to do so, I’m afraid of failure, I’m afraid that will be no use to do it all, and more often than not, I’m afraid of what people will say about me (esp. rude or cynical comment), so I never do it. The never-ending-life-problems even cover my eyes and soul. I play silence. At the end of the day, I feel I had failed long before I even tried.

But here I am now, I start to write things. Everything. Junks in my mind. What’s with this writing, you may ask. I am starting my move. I am starting to act. With this tiny little thing I do, writing, I believe the beginning is there. People say, the first is always the hardest. But if you don’t have the first move, you’ll not move at all. I want change, so I have to change myself first. If I don’t create the small change, I won’t change at all. Thus, I write the things I love, and how to release it. How I’m doing my passion which results in the form of “adding value” for others, for our life. I imagine ideas, analyse the resources and create steps to achieve it. Somehow, I feel the energy rules the roost! I’m so gonna embrace 2017 with smile and excitement!! To do something for others, which waters my soul as well. Watch me doing something good in life, I promise myself. I may not talk about the achievement at the soonest, but then again, as they say, “allow yourself to be a beginner, no one starts off being excellent”!

Keep the faith!!

XX,

-Sevi, 24^th January 2017-